life.

so life has been tough .. my boyfriend, and i both work two different work schedules, and he goes to school so we barely see each other =/ i start school in September, i don't even want to know how hard it is going to be then. But, hes the man of my dreams, and i plan on marrying him so we got to work hard, to not get into arguments over stupid stuff. I tend to get angry over nothing, because of the past. It's not good, because by doing that i push him away, and i really don't want too, because i love him so much ! I'm working really hard on changing because i don't want to lose him. He makes me really happy, and I'm letting my past relationships get in the way of my happiness, and it's not the right thing to do. The past, of course is apart of you, but you can't let it ruin the present, and the future. I learned the hard way, and I'm still trying everyday to make my relationship better, and stronger. The family .. that is a whole other story. Living at home, makes me really stressed, and I can't wait until i have enough money to move out. I will feel a whole lot better, that is also why I'm so angry all the time. My brother .. he's a piece of shit .. i know it's not right to say, but the truth is the truth. And sometimes, the truth hurts. Hopefully every thing will get better soon. It's tough not seeing the one you love, as much as you want too. Because after all, he makes everything better. AHHH =/

Jessica&Michael <3 62609 :] i love youuuuu*

"All it takes for your dreams to come true"

"Love is a shared feeling between two people who have a vested interest in one anothers happiness. Love is not about jealousy. It is not about conflict. It is not about testing. Love is a positive feeling. If it is tainted by mistrust, jealousy, insecurity or spitefulness it is not really love but merely a pale copy. Love is the total surrender of your heart to another person with the security of knowing they will treat it better than you will. Love should feel good. It should not feel bad. Love should make you want to be a better person, it should not lead you to do something self destructive. Love is not demanding of your spirit but lifts it and makes it glow. Love is a good thing."

-- i put this quote here because after being hurt by a guy more than once, its hard for me to trust guys. The problem is that the boyfriend i have no is completely amazing ! He is trust worthy, respectful, sweet and caring. And, i feel that if i keep over reacting and getting mad over stupid things, and doubting him eventually he's going to get sick of it, and get up and leave. And, that i do not want. He is worth it all, and he has become everything to me. I used to think that i had true happiness, but i had no idea what true happiness was until i met Mike .. In the past I lied to myself, tricking myself into believing that being treated like crap, getting walked all over was true happiness .. but meeting Mike, and finally listening to my friends made me realize i never was happy. I finally have a smile on my face, and finally laughter comes out of my mouth, and its all because of him. Im happier, and im myself again ! and i cant thank him enough. Ive been through so much, and i finally deserve to be truly happy. Sometimes, it seems to good to be true, and thats why i doubt my love for him and his love for me, but I know deep down there is nothing to doubt .. the look in his eyes when he looks into mine is so full of trust and love. And im so happy i found him. FINALLYYY !!!!


62609, the best day of my life !


ahh my baby playing guitarrr !! soooo sexxy :]

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Does life ever get easier? I feel like whenever things start going good, something always has to come and screw it up. i can't wait until I have enough money so I can move out of the hellhole I live in. I understand people make mistakes, so why can't people ever be forgiven? I messed up in school. and i had to pay those concequences, but why do my parents still make me feel like shit about it. Atleast I didn't drop out of school, and just give up. Stress has begun to take over my life. If I didn't have a few good friends, and an amazing boyfriend I would feel so alone. It is the worst feeling in the world to be surrounded by so many people, but yet, you still feel so alone ... The summer is almost over, and i did absolutely nothing but work. It was also one of the best summers because i met the most amazing person ever :] and i realized alot of things about people and life. Knowledge is a gift. Blahhh, off to work again. I miss him so muchhhh !! A skylit drive, i love their music :]

62609 - best day of my life. I love him.

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Well, I decided to start this blog because of Dary, whose pretty cool. After a year of complete stress heartache , and misery I've finally met the boy of my dreams Michael Michelle Nathan Laryea. He is the most amazing person ive ever met in my entire life. He makes me so happy. His presence alone melts away all my stress, and leaves me with a peramant smile. He is sweet, kind, caring, loving, mysterious, and more. He is beautiful on the inside and out. He is so talented, and i love him with all my heart. It is an honor to have him in my life, and a miracle that he is mine. The feelings i get when i talk to him, or when i see him is indescribeable. True happiness, is the most amazing feeling, and i hope one day everyone incounters it. Never take anyone you love for granted, because you never know what can happen.

62609 was the best day of my life !