"Love is a shared feeling between two people who have a vested interest in one anothers happiness. Love is not about jealousy. It is not about conflict. It is not about testing. Love is a positive feeling. If it is tainted by mistrust, jealousy, insecurity or spitefulness it is not really love but merely a pale copy. Love is the total surrender of your heart to another person with the security of knowing they will treat it better than you will. Love should feel good. It should not feel bad. Love should make you want to be a better person, it should not lead you to do something self destructive. Love is not demanding of your spirit but lifts it and makes it glow. Love is a good thing."
-- i put this quote here because after being hurt by a guy more than once, its hard for me to trust guys. The problem is that the boyfriend i have no is completely amazing ! He is trust worthy, respectful, sweet and caring. And, i feel that if i keep over reacting and getting mad over stupid things, and doubting him eventually he's going to get sick of it, and get up and leave. And, that i do not want. He is worth it all, and he has become everything to me. I used to think that i had true happiness, but i had no idea what true happiness was until i met Mike .. In the past I lied to myself, tricking myself into believing that being treated like crap, getting walked all over was true happiness .. but meeting Mike, and finally listening to my friends made me realize i never was happy. I finally have a smile on my face, and finally laughter comes out of my mouth, and its all because of him. Im happier, and im myself again ! and i cant thank him enough. Ive been through so much, and i finally deserve to be truly happy. Sometimes, it seems to good to be true, and thats why i doubt my love for him and his love for me, but I know deep down there is nothing to doubt .. the look in his eyes when he looks into mine is so full of trust and love. And im so happy i found him. FINALLYYY !!!!
62609, the best day of my life !
ahh my baby playing guitarrr !! soooo sexxy :]